HOW CAN I BE SO FUCKING STUPID?!
Just this Sep 19, 2013, he told me he love me one last time. I thought things were still going well between us. But noooo. I was so fucking wrong. Because just right now, I checked my Facebook (because I wanted to greet my friend a happy birthday), and surprisingly saw him post something. Turns out he has a new girlfriend. It’s funny how that fucking post was the 1st post on my News Feed. It’s like the universe is telling me to fucking delete my account, close the tab, and forget everything about him. And well, yup, I will. I don’t give a fuck. I should not give a fuck. It’s his loss. And I clearly deserve someone better.
It just sucks though because I let him smother me with his bullshit words once again. Like I never learned my lesson. Idiot.
I don’t want to let myself be attached to anyone ever again. I will wait for the right guy, I promise. I owe myself that. I don’t want to hurt like this anymore.